STRONG

It is never until we are called to battle that we realize the value of being the quiet Warrior


Sometimes, life just makes no sense whatsoever, and when it is that we find ourselves in the middle of a hot steaming pot of crap soup - THAT is when we finally realize what it means to have strength and to be Strong.

Strong is not something you are born as


We cannot fathom the depth of our own strength, our own integrity, our inner Selves, unless we have to go through stuff. It is not a secret that there are a LOT of us who have been and who are still going through stuff. I am going through stuff right now, more stuff than I care to. There are a lot of well-meaning people who email me and call me, call me to tell me things that I should do, that I can do, about things that I have tried which have failed. This is not a time in my life where my pride can be in the way, not a time when I can just choose to not do what I have to do - this is not a choosing that I 'chose', so to speak, but is a time that I was, instead, chosen for.

There is no one better in the world to endure what it is that is in front of me than me. There is no one in this world whose lesson is encased in this bullshit called 'my life at present time' who is better suited to fight the good fight, battling the quiet fight all while ensuring that my head is no where near shoved up my ass. There is, essentially, no one on the planet who can deal well with the task at hand (and it IS a task...I promise) than me.
Yes, while we choose who it is we will spend our lives and our families with, we are not the ones who choose to have to learn certain life lessons.

Right now, I am sure of it, the lesson that I am learning is that I am Strong. The reason that I am sure of it is is because I have not yet given up. I may have given up screaming and yelling, throwing things other than a 41 year old tantrum, but I have not yet given up the fight. I have not given up the fight, and I know already that this is only a mild taste of what is to come. Of course, what  is to come will not only be imposed upon me, upon you, upon us all, by one person, not by any means at all. What is to come are the little irritating things that set us off, but these little irritating things that are to come will come to us all in clusters, in the form of losses, of marital and familial discord, of things that none of us will be able to comprehend, maybe not the reason, but for sure, for the fight of it all.

And through it all, I am, you are, we all are, to be Strong like we have never been before. Yes, it is already and will continue to be that tough, and yes, totally worth it when all is said and done.

The message is...


The message is simple - right now we are all at the end of a cycle of our lives. For many of us, this means the end of a relationship or at least the end of the way that a particular relationship has been. This current time is all about the evolution of our very selves, and it is about time, because we have all been stuck in the same pattern, have become way to comfy with the idea that the mediocrity that we thought was our best is still our best, and that anything more than what it was is just too much. Some of us are breaking away from our old selves, while others of us do not even realize that this is what is going on, preferring instead to think of it all as being only one long string of really bad days.

WAKE UP !!

If you do not see already the patterns of evolution as they have happened, open your damned eyes and start seeing things for what they really and truly are - changing. Humans for as long as time has been recorded have hated change. We resist change because we fear the unknown, but if we do not like what IS known, wouldn't it make sense that perhaps the unknown might not be that bad? Yes, things that we fear take a little time for us  to face and to heal from, and if the thing that has been haunting you has not gone away, it is because you are not done with the lesson that you are learning from it.

Walk on, with your head held high, even though your soul feels battered and bruised...


The Soul is an amazing thing. It is resilient like a 5 year old and sturdy like thirty year old Tupperware. The soul is the barometer by which the seasons of change are kept track of. The soul knows what it can handle and rarely will it bother to take on more than it can handle.

We are to walk on, walk tall and proud, showing off our bruised selves as though what we have gone through is something that we should be proud of, and we should be. It is not until we are met with certain adversity that we ever know what we are made of.

Yes, this time in our lives sucks okole. We are all in the middle of a storm that is not relenting, and it is not relenting because we still have so much to learn. Walk on and keep walking, because you will never know what the hell you can deal with if you do not. This is not a fight that the Ego can fight, and it is because the Ego is the reason that the Soul has to fight - the ego gets us into trouble all the time, and like clockwork it is always the soul which comes to the rescue.

It is fine to feel like a child lost in the grocery store, screaming in panic because we do not realize that our mother is just hunched down looking at the items on the bottom shelf. Mom would never leave us alone, so consider your soul the mom within you. The Soul takes care of us, makes sure that we only have just enough rope with which to hang ourselves with and is hoping that we decide to think of stringing the rope through the belt loop in our jeans and not slip it around our neck and decide to jump off the footstool we seem to think is what separates us from sure death and the floor which can sustain us, because like Mom would not, the soul would not allow us so short a rope that we could actually hurt ourselves.

STRONG


Strong. It is something that not a lot of people can claim as being. Strong people go through things without thinking that it is going to be a problem to have to go through things. We simply just go through them because it is what we must do. We know that there is a certain end to the turmoil, so with a heart as big as the sky and courage which could dwarf the Grand Canyon, we dive right into the fracas, hoping not that we are making the right choice, but that we make it through it all wiser than we were when we started out.

Strong is something that you must earn being, because Strong is something that is not for everyone. Not everyone is willing to have a broken heart, over and over again, and not everyone can deal with being let down, with being disappointed, with having to deal with the shame and the pain that are both part of strengthening of the soul

So go ahead- cry, curse the God to Whom you kneel, and know that you earned the right to do those things, because they are things that are set aside only for those who know what it is to have to cry, to have to try, to have to be in pain, all and only so that you can, I can, we can all be the thing that no one is ever born as being.


I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

...Roxanne...