Stripes

You cannot change who you are, so deal with it


Most folks try hard to fit themselves into a place in life that they are not meant for. How sad a testament it is to the future of humanity when we cannot accept who we are.

Really sad


I will admit to having had bouts with who I really Am. I mean, how can all of us, at the same time, have the notion that somehow God screwed up?

We can't, or at least we shouldn't, because even those who are considered as being the best of humanity have had their own bouts with self doubt, of not knowing who they really are, and yep, they've even been publicly outed for it, Case in point? Ummmm....Tiger Woods? Ben Roethlisberger? Michael Vick?

All these guys, and more who are just as rich, just as famous, just as above the rules that the rest of us are not. Sure, they have money and fame and whatever else it is that compels us all to think that somehow, they simply are just above the rest of us, but really, they are not. They just are in a different income bracket is all, and Tiger Woods, as much as I love what the guy has done for the game of golf, is not above the rest of us when it comes to monumental screw ups of the worst kind !!

My point in this is that we can go about bragging to the rest of the world that we are this, or that we are that, or that we are working on becoming this or that, but the truth is that unless we have each decided that we are who we are because God has the ultimate plan laid out for us, we have no clue of who we are. You can be that person who is rebuilding their lives from scratch, and whatever it is that you do to get where it is that you think you have to be in life to be who you really are, NONE of that matters unless and until you decide here and now that who you are at the moment is good enough. You can chase money and beauty, and you can "have it all," but until you have decided that who you are and who you are just exactly as you are is good enough, not only for the rest of the world but also for yourself, you will inevitably just be setting yourself up for the same shit you have already been through, and that is no fun at all when you think about it.

A tiger cannot change his stripes, nor a Jaguar her spots


Someone else's life always seems like it is the ideal life, namely when it seems that life has puked all over your kegger. Your life is messy and hard while their life seems as though it is a cake walk in comparison. You want for what they have, but what you really seek is the peace that it seems comes to them effortlessly, and if it is that you seek peace but continually find tumult, then, my friend, what  is happening is that God is trying hard to show you your own way, but you keep on bucking against it, and well, God is kind of a Big Guy, and you can buck all you want to. The fact remains that you will have to deal with the fact that you are not your neighbor, are not that person who seems to have it all, and in fact, you may very well be living the life that the person of whom you are envious wants to live.

To them your life might seem like a dream come true. No bills that they have, no boss that seems to endlessly harangue you, nothing in your life that is stressing you out to no end. This is the reality of these sorts of things. The problem is not in the idea that we want for the things that others have, but that we are not grateful for what we already have, no matter how big or small that may seem to any one of us. I will admit right now to pining  for something more than only what  I have at the moment, but the truth is that I have what I need, and eventually that which I pine for, which I manifest and intend to have, no matter what or who that is, is already Being - I just have things that must be worked through first before they enter my own life.

This is the tricky part of manifesting - accepting our circumstances, and that includes accepting who we are and learning to love who we are.

We are who we are for a reason


There are a whole lot of reasons as to why it is that some folks have to deal with what  they have to deal with, and right now that one person in my life is my old man. He is hard headed, egotistical and arrogant. On the other side of all those things that seem to be the determinant in success in business versus success in life is that he is ill - very ill, probably doesn't have too much time left, and no matter how many times he tries to bargain with God, he is forgetting that he has to first accept what he has made of his life thus far. But that is not my bag to carry, not my pu'olo, and as soon as I  have accepted that even as we have been soldered to one another through means of marriage certificate and twenty plus years, and more - as soon as I accept that there is really nothing that I can do for his physical state, I will then be able to accept that yes, there are people on the planet sharing space with us all who have no appreciation for life until it is far too late.

But again - that is not what I care to write about. In fact, I will not bother to rehash what is my life, what  has become of my life over the last three years. It is too painful and there is just way too much to deal with. I, however, will tell you that at the onset of all the madness that has become my life, I have learned that I am far stronger than I thought I was, far more intelligent than I have been giving myself credit for, and the best part of that is you are also allowed to pat yourself on the back for the strides that you have made in these last tumultuous three years of life. We have all lost a lot - of money, of things and sadly, of people. And we have done so in a manner which is not befitting of any of us. We have gone from a nation of tough guys  and bad asses to a nation almost of beggars and wussies, and I hate to throw it at you like this, but we caused it, and we caused by adapting to being something and someone who we are not. We were not all ever supposed to feed at the trough of greed, of being sneaky and of taking until there was nothing left to take, and we all did it in our own sneaky way, and now, whether we all want to believe it or not, we are all paying our Karmic debt, some of us more than others.

We are not these lazy, egotistical, arrogant idiots who are ignorant to the fact that indeed, what goes around comes around. We are not these pathetic people who have no hope, no dreams and no plans for the future at all. People have simply just given up and decided that since there are doomsday predictions for 2012, they might as well just jump on into the fire and die, so to speak, because we are all on the same ship where the band is playing and just accept that we have to go down with the ship.

Well, folks, I say no...in fact I say HELL no! We do not have to go down with the ship. Don't y'all realize that the band for this particular ship is not even anything CLOSE to violins and is instead METALLICA and those guys AIN'T goin' down like this - no way.

And no, my friends, neither shall we!

Are you a weak ass?


Only a weak ass will stand up and say shit about what he or she does not like, but they will never, ever come to the table with a possible solution, ever. They will continue to make sure that we are all as miserable as they are, never becoming able to see through the crap that life has served them up and NEVER for one moment ever try to think of a way that even as it may hurt for a minute, will be just the thing we all needed. You see, we never know the impact of our actions until those actions have been made, and until we get up the balls enough to try to exact change, we will never, not now nor later either, know what the  hell it is that  we are capable of. We can try to be what we are not, but that just eventually pisses us off and we end up wondering why it is that things are not turning out the  way we want them to.

Well, dumb ass, things won't ever be right until you learn to do things from the Self and instead of trying hard to buy  your way out of a problem, try dealing with it instead and learn something from the work that  you put into your own life. You might be happily surprised at the outcome.

Now, go thee out into the world, banging your head, screaming and yelling like a madman, because if that is who you really are, that is who we all really want to know. No one likes a phony, and no one likes being lied to.

So, go out there, into the great big world, and be yourself - lampshade, pink pants that light up, and blue lipstick, because baby - if that is who you are, that is who you will always be, no matter what.

And THAT is who we all really want to know!

I LOVE YOU ALL!
...Roxanne...